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Six Years And Still Waiting...

The first time I came to know about Valley of Flowers was in the summer of 2010. I don't recall how that discussion came about but it was probably during one of those leisure afternoons between our second semester examinations at BHU. As we started gathering more information about this beautiful place, we immediately knew we had to visit it sometime. The first break came in 2013 when most of us were comfortably settled in our master's programs. I, Rishabh, Sourav and Vishal decided to visit VoF in June 2013. Just a week prior to our much awaited trip, nature unleashed its fury over Uttarakhand. Heavy rainfall and ensuing floods caused nearly 6000 deaths and severe damage to property. This automatically led to the demise of our plan. 

The valley was shut for the next three years. 

The next trip was planned for July 2016 and the planning began in earnest in May. Tickets were booked, reservations were made and everything was planned to the last detail. Tonight, we ( I, Amit and Vishal) are supposed to leave for Haridwar but we are not going. The situation in Uttarakhand is a little precarious owing to landslides caused by heavy rains. Multiple roads are blocked and weather is going to deteriorate in the coming week. The trip stands cancelled once again. I don't know how long we will have to wait before we get another chance. 

PS: I am feeling miserable.

For How Long

For how long can you walk

Before your steps become heavy

For how long can you gaze

Before a weariness descends in your eyes

For how long can you hope

Before your conception falls apart

For how long can you speak

Before you realize the virtue of silence

For how long can you write

Before your words lose their meaning

For how long can you trust

Before the eventual betrayal

For how long can you breathe

Before the futility of existence stares

The long enough

Until the moment arrives

When the past and the future

Merges with the present

Creating a seemingly timeless vortex

Which swallows everything that was human about you

The Forgotten Words

Dejected but standing up with a new zeal, a purpose engulfing me all over again, pushing me to fight for one more time, assuring me that there is plenty of life ahead awaiting to bestow its nectar upon me.

These words were penned down my me almost six years ago, sometime in March 2010, when I failed to qualify KVPY's interview. I was distraught and my naivety led to me to write these words.

Sadly, they are still relevant to me!

Inertia

Driven by desperation

To seek perfection

In least possible action

Is quite a funny notion

To set things in motion

Requires a perfect correlation

Between our thoughts and actions

Coupled with total concentration

And unwavering dedication

To learn Physics

Avoid slips

And be ready to take kicks

At times failure will make you sick

But stay on and stick

Surge ahead while learning new tricks.